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It's my twin nieces' birthday today. Happy birthday girls!

Yes, I'm an uncle. Sounds weird, when I think about it. I barely have one toe in the door of life, and I'm uncle to 3 years old twins. I guess one day I might just say: "Seems weird, when I think about it. I barely have a foot across the door of life and I already have a kid."

I don't see that day coming soon, though. It's not that I don't like kids. It's not that I don't trust myself on that regard (raising children and all). It's just that I don't see how I could find the woman that will have these kids with me. I can't see how anyone could stay long enough with me to actually have a baby. I can't even see the whole flirting, dating and exploring part. I don't flirt. I don't date.

Why wouldn't a girl ask me out for a change? I think I'm pretty good at asking out. I asked out three girls and all three accepted and went on a date with me. I'm good. That's 100%. A+. But, every time, there's disappointment. The date goes wrong. The girl goes wrong. Nothing goes wrong, but nothing's really right to begin with. Now, I just don't ask girls out and don't go on dates. I skip all the stress and cut on the disappointments.

I want a girl to show interest in me, just once, just to see what it's like. Oh, it happened to me before. That annoying girl I've dated three times was sporadically interested in me. But it wasn't enough. And she was annoying. There's also a little girl. When I was 18, there was this girl, perhaps 14 years old, who was madly in love with me. I was the worst kept secret ever. So much that I shouldn't even be calling it a secret, not even in a lesser degree. She had told everyone but me, but everyone told me, and I could see it anyway. That's not the kind of interest I'm looking for. I'm looking for curiosity and desire.

Curiosity and desire, people! And someone who's willing to make the first step. Now, spread the word, look around and find me a woman!

Go!