Just saying

I feel like crap today. Is it that pain on the entire left side of my upper body? Maybe. Is it that self-limiting obsession I have? You know, the one I can't get over and move on from. Just think about it. You get it now? No?! What the fuck!? There's a reason why I don't want to be clear. That reason remains unclear... how paradoxical! I'll have to quote that one later (yes, as I proved in the past, I'm egocentric enough to quote myself).

I feel like crap because my mind again is paralyzed. Ok... I won't write it in an email or in a chat, so if you (and I hope you know who is you, otherwise, it might be confusing) read this accidentally, I can't be held to full responsibility. Here it is: all I do is think about you. When I go to bed. When I dream. When I wake up. When I work. When I listen to music. When I write. When... well, there are more disgusting occurences of me thinking about you, but I don't need to name them (and by disgusting, I don't mean it in that sense, rather that other more disgusting sense, that is completely natural, by the way). It's driving me insane.

Sorry for the millions at home who don't understand.